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Tales of Fantasy, Mystery and Adventure Under the Influence of Christian Homeschooling

S. A. J. Lyttek, a multiple award-winning writer, always loved writing, but didn’t arrive at the profession in the typical manner. After college and graduate school, she plunged into government consulting. In this environment, she discovered a knack for writing tests, interviews and other measurements. That soon became the focus of her career—reigniting her love for the written word. Thus captivated, she spent evenings freelancing “fun” writing including short stories, poems, articles and cards. When her eldest was a toddler, she quit full-time work to stay home and write. Eager to spend more time with her children, homeschooling intrigued her. From preschool through high school, she homeschooled both sons while continuing to freelance. An integral part of the homeschooling community, she has developed and taught writing classes to a generation of homeschoolers. Married to her childhood sweetheart, Gary, Mrs. Lyttek loves to share her commitment to homeschoolers and her fascination with the written word.

To Breathe

5/19/2018 5:30:00 PM BY Susan Lyttek

There’s a scene in Ever After that keeps replaying in my mind. Drew Barrymore’s character is heading to the ball. She is incredibly nervous and with good reason. She is a commoner heading to a function that only nobles are allowed at. Will the prince’s affection for her carry past that obstacle? Will he forgive her for not telling him who she really is? So as she walks up the stairs, she says, “Breathe, just breathe.”

That line is my mantra lately. I keep holding my breath when I think about too many things or try to seize the past, present and future into my little mind and make them work for me. I can’t do it. I know I can’t. Yet my mind keeps going into this loop, then I catch myself holding my breath, then I tell myself to breathe, confess my sin to God of trying to be Him, take a bunch of calming breaths and live successfully for about five minutes before I catch myself at it again.

I am convinced that this very unproductive and unhealthy cycle is what has been causing my blood pressure to go up occasionally. It’s not an all the time thing, but enough to get my primary care concerned. Not only do I need to figure out how to stop this for my spiritual health, but for my physical health as well.

Why do I act like this? I, too, feel like I’m pretending. While I can look at a resume and know I’m more skilled than I was twenty years ago, I don’t feel it. I feel smaller somehow and like the world will catch me acting as a princess when I’m really a pauper.

But that’s so untrue spiritually. I really am a princess, a child of the King of Kings. As princess, though, I need to let him rule. It is only when I’m acting like I can do His job that I can damage myself. Through Jesus, I can do all things, but without him, I can do nothing.

Maybe, just maybe, I’ll be able to convince my lungs of that fact sometime soon.