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It should, though, shouldn’t it? If anyone is looking out for us and wants the best for us, it’s God. We know that in our heads and the Bible tells us in many ways about God’s love and provision, but somehow it just doesn’t get far enough down into our core to kick out the fear, the worry and the stress. Sure, God, I say. I know you want what’s best for me, 
but how does it look in regards to what I think is best for me? What if it’s too hard?
Luke 11:11-13 (HCSB) What father among you, if his son asks for a fish, will give him a snake instead of a fish? Or if he asks for an egg, will give him a scorpion? If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will the heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him?”
I’ve been thinking about this topic a lot lately. It’s the beginning of the new school year. I don’t have as many students as I did last year, so that will translate to less income. At this point in time, my hubby would like it if I made more money so he can decide what to do about possibly retiring. Therefore, I’ve been applying for jobs and for online freelance work as well as trying to market my stories better.
So far, it feels like everything I’ve done has been thrown into a bottomless pit. I call down… Am I doing the right thing? And I hear the word ‘thing’ echo back a dozen times. We’re praying and we’ve asked for prayer about potential jobs for me and decisions for Gary. But neither of us feel any clear guidance. And for me, it seems the more I try to do, the less actually happens.
I would be lying if I said I’m accepting this waiting and this black hole in front of me with grace and patience. In fact, it’s more like not accepting it at all and instead crying and whining.
Some days, I wonder why I should keep trying. But I know that the income from the two tutoring positions I have, plus my current book sales are not going to make up the difference we need to see in order to move forward planning Gary’s retirement. So I send in another resume or upload more of my writing samples.
In the past I’ve had other times like this. When I get to the other side, I see how God’s hand worked and led me where I needed to be. I know it will be like that again eventually. I just can’t see it. And since I can’t see it, it’s hard to trust it.
Lord, I believe. Help me past my unbelief.
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6/22/2018 1:32:00 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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5/19/2018 5:30:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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5/6/2018 8:08:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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4/29/2018 8:58:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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3/31/2018 9:44:00 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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2/25/2018 10:59:00 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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1/21/2018 7:32:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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1/6/2018 10:36:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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Christmas Letter
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12/9/2017 10:04:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Twas the Night
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11/25/2017 6:10:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
The Wonder of a Shoebox
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A Place to Hide
11/11/2017 3:13:00 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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Overweight
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5/20/2017 9:03:00 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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4/22/2017 5:33:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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3/29/2017 8:24:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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3/11/2017 8:08:00 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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3/4/2017 7:45:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
February Birthday Tribute
2/18/2017 8:01:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Writing, Living and Existing
2/11/2017 9:43:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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1/28/2017 8:33:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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Our Christmas Letter
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December Birthday Tributes
12/5/2016 10:59:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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10/12/2016 5:22:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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10/2/2016 8:20:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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9/3/2016 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Standard Rescue, part 1
8/27/2016 4:59:44 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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7/8/2016 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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7/4/2016 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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6/30/2016 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Lessons from My Color Bible, Part 2
6/10/2016 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Leftover Queen, Part II
5/27/2016 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Leftover Queen
5/20/2016 9:39:00 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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4/22/2016 10:37:35 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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4/6/2016 6:26:30 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Good Friday Thoughts
3/26/2016 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Confessions of a Delinquent Blogger
3/23/2016 8:42:49 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Accepting the Gift of Free Time
2/29/2016 7:45:10 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Rest vs. the Type-A Female
2/22/2016 3:43:20 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Lessons on Sickness and Rest
2/14/2016 9:09:30 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Sick Lessons
2/6/2016 11:17:24 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Blocked
1/27/2016 11:11:44 AM by: Susan Lyttek
When Inspiration Fails to Strike
1/16/2016 9:32:15 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Stumbling Into the New Year
1/13/2016 11:02:06 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Annual Christmas Letter
12/26/2015 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Benefits to the Parent: Help with Work
10/31/2015 10:50:23 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Benefits to the Homeschool Parent: Home
10/24/2015 4:55:48 PM by: Susan Lyttek
The Benefits of Unscheduled Free Time
10/16/2015 8:03:39 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Benefits to the Homeschool Parent: More Empathetic
10/9/2015 7:46:24 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Benefits to the Homeschool Parent: More Empathetic
10/9/2015 7:39:56 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Benefits to the Parent: More Willing to Persevere
10/2/2015 8:50:54 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Benefits to the Homeschool Parent: Closer to God
9/25/2015 8:33:01 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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9/18/2015 7:07:30 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Benefits to the Homeschool Parent--Weaker
9/11/2015 7:42:33 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Benefits to the Parent--Seeing God's Hand
9/4/2015 9:59:53 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Benefits to the Homeschool Parent: Savvy-er
8/28/2015 6:49:31 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Benefits to the Homeschool Parent: Braver
8/21/2015 7:34:00 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Benefits to the Homeschool Parent: Wiser
8/14/2015 7:33:44 AM by: Susan Lyttek
The Benefits to the Homeschool Parent: Smarter
8/7/2015 7:31:13 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Benefits of Being a Homeschool Parent (Intro)
7/31/2015 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Lessons from my Great Aunt Ansie
7/24/2015 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Virginia Writers Conference
7/14/2015 11:43:28 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Relearning Fitness (Part 2)
7/10/2015 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Some Truth About Independence Day
7/3/2015 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Relearning Fitness (Part 1)
6/26/2015 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Under the Sun
6/19/2015 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
A Lesson I Keep Needing to Re-Learn
6/13/2015 9:17:18 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Times of Transition
6/6/2015 8:43:26 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Blog Ideas
5/30/2015 7:06:10 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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5/23/2015 7:36:30 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Mercs Next Door, Part 1
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5/9/2015 9:32:42 PM by: Susan Lyttek
To Blog or Not to Blog
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4/25/2015 2:01:36 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Gaming Education
4/18/2015 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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4/4/2015 6:47:45 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Power of the Coupon
3/28/2015 6:18:32 PM by: Susan Lyttek
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3/7/2015 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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2/14/2015 7:12:56 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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Off the Hamster Wheel... Part 3
1/30/2015 9:01:50 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Off the Hamster Wheel... Part 2
1/24/2015 7:55:59 PM by: Susan Lyttek
The Homeschool Hamster Wheel
1/16/2015 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Etiquette Education
1/9/2015 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Ready Stance
1/2/2015 7:01:43 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Our Christmas Letter
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Sharing Christmas, Part Two
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Sharing Christmas
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Swedish Christmas Education
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The Worry/Grumble Antidote
11/28/2014 11:07:16 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Milestone Days
11/21/2014 9:58:07 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Volunteer Education--via Operation Christmas Child
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Veteran Education
11/7/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Reformation Education
10/31/2014 8:51:31 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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10/17/2014 4:30:17 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Learning to Stand
10/10/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Christian Work Ethic
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Animal Education
9/26/2014 10:54:19 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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9/19/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Blog Block
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Educating Mom
9/5/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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8/29/2014 7:22:59 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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The Homeschool Rebel
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Other Countries, Other Peoples
8/8/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
George Washington Lessons
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Interview with Heather Day Gilbert
7/25/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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The Blessing of the Church
7/11/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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6/27/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
School Lite
6/20/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Homeschooling Poetry
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Homeschool Preschool
6/6/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
AWANAcation (or Awana Education)
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5/23/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
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Unexpected Education
5/9/2014 8:31:18 AM by: Susan Lyttek
When Is a Homeschool Mom NOT a Homeschool Mom?
5/2/2014 8:08:10 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Relax, It's Just Writing
4/25/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Purpose Driven Homeschool
4/18/2014 9:38:10 AM by: Susan Lyttek
The Heart of the Music
4/11/2014 3:11:23 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Music Lessons
4/4/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Teaching My Testimony (Part 2)
3/28/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Teaching My Testimony (Part 1)
3/21/2014 8:16:29 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Glimmers of Homeschooling
3/14/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Failed Days
3/7/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Other Side of the Homeschool Table...Leanne Hanson
2/28/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Fairy Tale Theology
2/21/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Things I Love about Life and Homeschooling
2/14/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Limitless Creativity by Bonnie Rose Hudson
2/7/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Weaving Christ into Math
1/31/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Paula Mowery Interview
1/24/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Historic Field Trips
1/17/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Snow Days... Homeschool Style
1/10/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Homeschooled Mom Resolutions
1/3/2014 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
Off Schedule
12/27/2013 11:17:52 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Teaching Christmas
12/20/2013 10:24:16 AM by: Susan Lyttek
The (Writerly) Benefits of Learning Together
12/13/2013 2:11:46 PM by: Susan Lyttek
Homeschooling reinforced that I am not perfect
12/6/2013 11:33:13 AM by: Susan Lyttek
And they said homeschooling would be easy...
11/29/2013 12:00:01 AM by: Susan Lyttek
